I am in love.

I promise I will not change my blog from being about anything and everything, and entirely random, but for now my mind is on babies.

I am in love. Everyone tells you how much you will be in love and addicted to your own child. They tell you, and you hear it, but it does not really sink in until you hold that precious little baby. There is no way to bottle up that knowledge — it is something that has to be experienced. I can imagine what a lot of things would be like, but many have to be experienced and felt as they happen. I have also been told that not everyone falls in love and becomes attached to their child right away.

I will say that first hour of bonding after delivery was a bit of a blur. I could see him right in front of me but the way he was laying I could not see his face. And, I was exhausted. So utterly exhausted. So it is a blur. Sure I have pictures and a video, and I am grateful he was on me first before getting checked out and cleaned up. It is the hours and days that follow that make me a feisty momma bear. I would d0 absolutely anything for this boy.

If I were to start a business, it would be to bottle up that Nico baby smell. It feels like I go and burrow my head in his neck just to smell him. I want that smell never to go away. How is it that babies smell so good? I know that eventually he will smell like sweat, and dirt, but right now I do not want that baby smell ever to go away.

Now I have two boys that melt my heart. Chris. Nico.

2 thoughts on “I am in love.

  1. Welcome back! So happy that we get to read about your baby love… and someday Nico will read your blog and know how over-the-top loved and cherished he was/is, before, during and after he appeared as your darling boy. Nico is very wise — he chose you and Chris!

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  2. Oh that unconditional mommy love! ….and you’re so right, you do have to experience it to really understand the depth of it. And now you do, and life will never be quite the same ever again. You and Chris and Nico are on the journey together. What joy! Thanks for sharing it in such a precious way.

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